Well it had to happen eventually since that’s what people do: get married. Although we haven’t been together in years, this particular fella was my first love, so it’s sort of tough to bear that he’ll be getting married tomorrow.
After having been in a relationship with him for two years that was one of the most important parts of my life, it’s strange to think that the person I loved so desperately once upon a time, will be walking down the aisle in about 24 hours. Of course, I’m happy for him that he found a love with whom he plans to spend forever, but I can’t help asking myself why it wasn’t me. I realize we were too young at the time to have even considered the idea of marriage, but the parts of me who still hold him in the highest regard and will never stop loving him (although it’s a different kind of love now), do wince at the fact that he’s about to go off the market. I would not want him back, mind you, and we’ve loosely remained friends, but again, all I can say is still.
So as to deal with this big day in his life and to keep my mind off of it, I have planned a bunch of things that will keep my head distracted. If you have any suggestions you’d like to add, please do so.