So, I am completing the last day of my water fast which I have undertaken because I am disciple of Rum Tum Tugger, the curious cat.
And honestly, the worst thing about it by day three is that it’s boring. You seriously don’t get the same fun out of life that you are accustomed to. Namely, you don’t get to get to go have a snack when you get bored, because snacking is something that can turn any time from boring time into fun-time.
I don’t feel particularly terrible – by the third day of consuming no food and drinking only water the hunger is more sort of a gnawing emptiness – but it’s really irritating that during the times when I could be enjoying breakfast or lunch I am now doing… nothing. I am drinking water.
I bought myself Perrier to make it “fun.”
It didn’t really work. I also bought groceries which seemed like a normal, human activity that I might do on the weekend, and I was surprised to realize that I didn’t want to rip the food off the shelves and just devour it all. I shopped in exactly the way I normally would have shopped. Actually, that’s not true. I bought a ton of soup, because you’re supposed to gently settle back into eating once you are on a fast, and have lots of juices and liquids and vegetables. So. Soup.
Portabello mushroom soup. I didn’t buy any actual mushrooms to mix into it, and I feel, almost immediately, that this is a decision I will live to regret. As I bought it I fantasized about every food I have ever loved and how incredible it would be to get to eat them all again.
I thought about Friday on Treasure Island who said “‘Many’s the long night I’ve dreamed of cheese – toasted, mostly – and woke up again, and here I were…”
God, it really must have sucked to be Friday.
After I bought groceries andtook them home I just stood and stared at my door for an unreasonable amount of time. I thought about breaking the fast, but it was only noon, and that was only two and a half days (I guess, technically, I was aiming for 3 and half, since the first night shouldn’t count, since you’re asleep.) I stared at my door some more.
And then I went to the place where people with no place to go go.