• Mon, Sep 10 2012

Harlotry: I Was A Live Nude Girl

But congratulate themselves they did. They would rap on the glass and point, they would yell questions about the attractiveness or relative size of their equipment, and some of them would at least try to do tricks, such as holding their hands above their heads and using their pelvic floor muscles to make their dicks dance. Sometimes it was funny, other times, such as if they weren’t tipping, it was maddening. If then, I would raise an eyebrow and hold up my thumb and forefinger in the universal gesture for ‘tiny’. It never got me any tips, but the looks on their faces were worth it anyway.

The ways that the universal human quest for intimacy manifests itself in the sex industry are always interesting, but my experiences at the peep show were the most by far. In the nearly wordless environment of the stage and VIP booths, the search for acceptance boiled down to a desire for the illusion of mutual genital appreciation: I like yours, please like mine. It was so hollow, so superficial, but it seemed to mean so much.

And so we all nodded and smiled and spread eagled and gyrated and went back to the dressing room when the lights flicked off and laughed about the ridiculous behavior of our latest customer, sometimes letting the sound vibrate through the paper-thin walls of the dressing room before we even heard the electronic chime of the front door.

Cathryn Berarovich is something of a renaissance sex worker; she’s currently employed as a stripper (and writer) but has held numerous interesting jobs in the industry. Each week, she shares her stories in Harlotry.

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  • Maggie

    Your stories are all so good! Someone should really give you a book deal :)

    • Cate

      I appreciate your vote of confidence!

      The idea of a book deal both excites and scares me. People have predicted it will happen, but so far there has been nothing. I am not too worried, though, after all I only started writing for people who are not myself a few months ago.

    • Andrea Dunlop

      I agree! Cate- hollar at me if you want to talk publishing. Jen has my info.

    • Cate

      Hi Andrea!
      I’m really hoping you aren’t just some troll trying to toy with my fragile hopes and dreams. However, so long as you are who you say you are, it is a real pleasure to internet-meet you! I have contacted Jennifer to ask about your contact information, as I would very, very much love to talk about publishing with you.

  • Meagan S

    This was hilarious! How on earth were you supposed to express your awe at their penis size? Two thumbs up?

    • Cate

      Two thumbs up, or maybe a sassy, hand-over-wide-open-mouth pin-up girl face? I’m really not sure what they wanted

      Honestly, though, I did see the biggest dick I’ve ever encountered while working in the peep show. Calling the thing a baby arm would not be an exaggeration and I could only think of how happy I was to not be on the receiving end of that appendage. The issue there was more concealing horror than anything else.

  • Renee

    Oh god…they ARE all inordinately proud of their genitalia.

    “they’d whip it out and look up with expectant, ‘Mommy, look what I did’ expressions” THIS.

    I’m pro sex work, but I have never felt comfortable pursing it myself. Which is why as a former massage therapist, it really pissed me off when men didn’t understand the difference between massage therapy and sex work. Like the client who decided to make his dick dance in the middle of me giving him a massage. As if I would be so impressed I would just throw in a free hand-job. A dancing dick is hilarious not enticing!

    • Cate

      That is just…god, that’s terrible. I mean, I have no words. Is the massage not enough for people?

      Sometimes I really do wonder what is wrong with people.

  • Silenus

    I find your posts interesting. Is there any way I can be notified of new posts without receiving Gloss’s 181.5 posts per week in my RSS feed?

    Thanks,

    Si

    • Cate

      Well, I know that my stories post every Monday somewhere between ten and noon, except on holiday weekends when they post on Tuesdays. As far as I know you can’t just subscribe to my posts, but you can check the site on the appropriate day.

      I am glad you like my posts!

    • Marian Rosenberg – Haikou #1 Translation Agency

      Indeed. I’m subscribed to Gloss’s 180+ posts a week just to read Harlotry.

      Even though I don’t deliberately read them skimming through Mommyish and STFU Parents and all the other Gloss stuff has led me to know more about the fashion world or parenting than I ever wanted to know.

      I’ve also realized that quite a number of the professional writers on this site are desperately in need of someone to check their grammar before they post. The mistakes jump off the screen, grab my eyes, and punch me in the face.

    • Cate

      Oh wow, I guess that speaks really well of me. But seriously guys, The Gloss has a bunch of other cool articles! Jennifer’s Shelved Dolls and Ashley’s Illustrated Guides in particular are very interesting and entertaining. If my recommendation carries any weight, I suggest you give them a shot.

  • Madam Michelle

    Sad the way men pay them to lie to their faces and laugh behind their backs and in return, the men respect them the most. Sad.