According to TMZ, who is always known for “reliable” sources, the 15-year-old daughter of the late Prince of Pop, tried to end her life by consuming more Motrin than the bottle recommends, then taking a meat cleaver to her arm. I’m not sure why one would go for a meat cleaver, but I know, for a fact, that when it comes to suicidal thoughts, the rest of your brain isn’t thinking. I once reached for cutting shears when I was super desperate to inflicted at least some sort of pain on myself. Realistically, it wasn’t going to get the job done, but it did do a number on my arms and legs after enough pressure and slicing — when that deep level of sadness strikes, you do what you can to numb it.
However, at some point during this suicide attempt, Paris decided to call a suicide hotline and was saved. This, of course, as most people would agreed, was all a cry for help. Clearly something is not right with Paris, and she was trying to make those around her understand. I mean, let’s be honest, her father was Michael Jackson, so that right there is a difficult weight to shoulder, and in recent months she had also been plagued by online bullying. As the NY Daily News reports:
On May 29, a Twitter war with another user included such insults as “you’re such a bully. That’s why your dad is dead,” “ugly bitch” and “your dad touched little boys.”
People really are the worst.
While one source confirmed the “cry for help,” on the part of Paris, another source (I’d really love to know where they scrounge up these people), said:
“Who takes Motrin to kill themselves? She called the suicide hotline because she wanted the attention and wanted to make sure EMTs got there in time.”
True; Motrin isn’t exactly the type of pill you reach for when you really want to end your life, but then again, neither is a meat cleaver a choice weapon. But what’s the problem with this sentiment is that Paris’ attempt is not being taken seriously enough. To dismiss that she just “wanted the attention,” is ignoring a problem. Yes, maybe she didn’t want to end her life, as she did call the suicide hotline, but when those around us who have never had the heart-wrenching need to end the pain, blow off such an act of violence against oneself, it’s not just irresponsible, but disgusting. And in the end, it’s the one who’s been labeled the attention seeker, who eventually loses.
As one who has tried to kill herself more than once, I can tell you that it wasn’t about attention. Now, in a far happier and mentally healthier place, I can look back and definitely see that I was crying out for help. I felt that my concerns, when expressed vocally, were falling on deaf ears, but it was by no means some juvenile attempt at getting attention. I was desperate, confused, feeling alone, and trying to hurt myself was my final attempt at trying to make those around me see I truly needed help.
I’m saddened to think think that Paris’ suicide attempt isn’t being taken as seriously as it should. Mentally sound people do not take a meat cleaver, or any kind of sharp object, to their body just for the hell of it. Those are the actions of a fucked-up and confused person, who needs to help. The last thing she needs is some douchebag “source” that TMZ found creepily hanging around a hospital bathroom or somewhere, criticizing this girl. At some point we, as a whole really need to get it through our thick skulls that mental illness is a serious ailment; it’s just as deadly as any other life-threatening disease.
It should also be noted that this was not Paris’ first time hurting herself.