As I mentioned the other day in my Canyons makeup tutorial, I am rather fond of Lindsay Lohan, however inexplicable those sentiments may sometimes be. In some odd way, I’m always rooting for her — among a small group of other famously “troubled” people — to turn her life around. It’s not like I am in support of how few punishments she’s received for her actions; on the contrary, I think harsher ones would have done her good. But I do hope that rehab worked and that she winds up sticking to it, despite Page Six reporting that she is already out partying again. However, her much-anticipated interview with Oprah for Oprah’s Next Chapter was her chance to discuss all that for herself.
Wearing a (rather beautiful) bright orange dress, a neat, flowing ponytail and a decided lack of bronzer, Lindsay sat down with Oprah to discuss rehab and all that led up to it. Here are the things I learned:
- She’d felt obligated to publicly discuss and lie about her substance abuse.
According to Lindsay, alcohol “in the past was a gateway to other things.” As for cocaine, despite previously admitting to using it just 3 to 4 times, she had been lying. ”I really haven’t done it more than 10 to 15 times, of course I said 3 to 4 because I was terrified of being judged. I never felt good the next day. It’s a party thing, people would have it and I’d do it. It went hand in hand with drinking.”
While alcohol and drug abuse are clearly not healthy, I do find it unpleasant that she would ever feel obligated to publicly answer, and therefore required to lie, regarding how many times she had used a specific substance. Feeling the need to lie about your drug issues is absolutely not conducive to healing from them.
- She was filming a documentary when she was supposed to do driving classes.
Lindsay says she was in India at the time when her court-ordered classes were assigned filming a documentary on human trafficking. On the one hand, I’m glad she was doing something…useful. Or at least, not so selfish as getting a bunch of DUIs. On the other hand, it’s hard not to see somebody skipping out of the country when she should be right her wrongs, simply because she’s a rich, famous person, and not get frustrated.
+ She verbally takes responsibility for her actions.
On her past crimes, she says:
“I don’t blame anyone for my mistakes. I don’t blame anyone for driving in a car while drinking. I did that and I’m not proud of it.”
- Her parents still sound like douchebags.
“I hate the bad rap that people give my parents. Because they are just parents, really, at the end of the day trying to stand up for their daughter and themselves…Nobody’s perfect. I love my parents. I’m not going to say that certain situations I would have preferred to be handled differently, to be kept within the family and private.”
I’m pretty certain that any parent who puts fame and money over the privacy and health of their own family members goes a little beyond “nobody’s perfect.” Of course, again, discussing familial issues is probably left behind closed doors, just as she is saying, so it’s understandable that she would brush off her parents’ behavior to Oprah.
- She got paid a ton of money young, then “wasted so much money” young.
After making $7M for Just My Luck in 2006 while around age 19/20, she wound up spending quite a bit of that by doing things like flying her friends out to see her and living in a hotel.
“I didn’t pay close enough attention to what was going on,” says Lindsay. “People around for the wrong reasons.”
- She didn’t take rehab seriously in the past.
On the note of going to Wonderland in 2007 by her own free will, she said:
“I wanted to go there. I tried Ambien at the time and it was really scary. It wasn’t an addiction, it was just a scare. I had taken it for about a month at the time and I didn’t know the side effects.”
Then, upon needing to go to rehab later in 2007, she was almost flippant on the matter.
“I didn’t take Promises seriously. I just turned 21, I wanted to have fun. I did the same thing again, it’s like the definition of insanity.”
+ At least she knows how lucky she is.
“Thank God, I have some serious guardian angels because I would never had been able to forgive myself if I hurt someone else,” she says regarding her DUIs. She really, truly is lucky, just as anybody who gets behind the wheel and miraculously doesn’t hurt somebody is.
- This recovery will be rough given her level of notoriety.
“It’s a process of growing up and recognizing and being just so tired and exhausted by the chaos, which is what it really is. I have had no right in my past to complain about being followed by cameras and people making up stories, but there’s something to be said about me moving forward.”
All in all, I’m generally optimistic about Lohan’s recovery, not that it really matters what I think. I try to be optimistic about most people’s recoveries, in fact, as I think that optimism — and not an instant takedown or the doubt of possible success for a person — can be really helpful to that recovery. Hopefully, Lohan is able to feel compelled toward success, too.