Nicki Minaj appears in this week’s US Weekly in a pink bikini and a green wig, which she wore during filming in Hawaii for her “Starship” video. That’s all well and good, except that she looks like she’s having the worst time of her life. The grimacing eyebrows, the awkward poses, the sand very likely going down her suit. Here’s what we believe is going through her mind in each of these photos:

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