By now, one assumes that all of us internet-readers know about Elizabeth Smart’s ongoing trial in Utah. Smart has made, it would seem, an incredible recovery after her abduction ordeal at the hands of Brian David Mitchell. reports today on something that no doubt a lot of people have wondered. It’s become clear over the past few years that Smart was out in public on a number of occasions, but didn’t try to escape. (To be clear, there is no world in which I fault her for that — there were obviously many, many issues at play that I will never understand, and she was doing her best to survive.) But how does she feel about those moments? Well, now we know.

During testimony, Smart recounted a time in a public library where she ran into a police detective who tried to lift her veil, but was reprimanded by Mitchell that the veil was there for “religious reasons,” so he put it back down. She had this to say:

“‘I was mad at myself that I didn’t say anything,’ she said on her second day of testimony at Mitchell’s trial in federal court in Salt Lake City. ‘I felt terrible that the detective hadn’t pushed harder and had just walked away.'”

Granted, most of us haven’t been kidnapped, and most of the things we beat ourselves up over aren’t of this caliber. But it’s a good reminder that for the most part, we’re all just doing the best we can. If your response to Elizabeth Smart would be, “no, don’t beat yourself up!” that should be your answer to yourself, too. So, you know…keep on keepin’ on.