I think we have a pretty fair share of oddballs at TheGloss. I know I was one.
I spent a lot of time in high school eating lunch by myself. That perhaps explains why I still eat lunch by myself every day – because you will always be the same person you were in high school, forever. But, of course, during your teenage years, these things are different. Namely because now I generally eat lunch by myself so I can catch up on reading, whereas in my pre-teen years it was because I was afraid if I sat too close to the wrong person they would tell me I was too dumb to live.
It’s been about 15 years since junior high, now, and that still feels embarrassing to admit.
Everyone wants to believe that they were always well liked and popular. I think there’s a terror that if you admit that you were not, then you never will be.
We outgrow that to some extent as we get older, and realize that almost everyone interesting was seen as weird at some point. But, also, we don’t, ever, entirely, I don’t think. If you were bullied in your teen years later life, there seems to remain a great pressure to show everyone that you are doing fine, all the time, and succeeding, and basically winning at life. Sometimes that’s a good thing because it inspires us onward. Sometimes it’s bad thing, because there are always parts of yourself that you’ll feel you’ll need to hide (and no one wins at life 100% of the time). But it’s only ever really a great thing if it helps us connect to other people, who have been through the same thing. Which is one reason I think this video by Shane Koyczan (and a lot of other very talented people) is so terrific. If you were ever bullied as a kid for being weird, watch this. And if you know anyone who is being bullied now, pass it on to them.